sometimes it's hard to figure out what I should say


It suddenly came to me that I should blog. so i'll just try.

some of you might not know that im going for army already. supposedly december, but my parents thought that I should just go in as soon as possible. so i wrote in a request for an earlier enlistment. I guess it has been confirmed that I'll be scheduled for the June/July in-take. I'll be going in around June i guess cos im PES BP la. which means PES B Pending, cos im in the obese company and therefore need to go in earlier, like a month earlier, so it's June instead of supposedly July. YAY obese company. Strangely but yes im so looking forward for National Service.

Many would be asking, "i thought you still have attachment and stuff to complete?" or "i thought you have 1 more year to go?".

well stop probing over it and just take the fact that Im going army. yes seriously. It's not some POSTPOST April's Fool joke or some shit.

There's much that happened between me and my family. I am such a disappointment, I really am. My parents also hope that the 2 years in army will "wake me up". I hope so too.

Now, or rather, since the holidays started, I dont have anything to do. I wanted to get a job BUT im going NS soon and i couldnt possibly just work 2 months only. So everyday would be like wake up, brush up and sit on my throne infront of my com. Hopefully i get a date and i can get to just go out.

Since im so free, I started joggin at bukit batok nature park sometimes. so i know my stamina is like shit but whatever, I'm trying.






it seems that you found something new in your life. Finally you could move on and leave the unhappy past behind. Oh but please dont leave everything behind. there shouldn't be anything to worry about i guess? at least you know it's 2 way traffic, not fucking 1.What's been done has been done. I feel happy for you.

Just call my name, and I'll be there.