oh deer oh dear
here we go again.

i havent touched this thing for so long
but now when i finally decided to poke abit,
it had to be a rant again.

im pretty sure its just a sudden infatuation.
but the shitty thing is, the competition.

2 man stranded on the boat with nothing but only bait and fishing rods.
someone else on the same boat saw the same friggin fish
well it's pretty obvious the better one gets the fish.

OH JEEEEBUS :s

stop sign & a 1-way traffic

how many of it already, 3.
driven it too fast, and so had to step on it and stop hard.

always easier said than done

it's eating me from inside.

trying to climb up the stratoshpere, but gets kicked down

no more breath inside,

essence left my heart, damn right.

saw Hailey's comet, she waved.

even the man in the moon disappeared.

paranoid in the cloudy Game of Love

to hear of Anything and Everything from sources

is just so common

to interpret Anything and Everything from sources

is too, so common.

is it really what it is from pessimistic thoughts?

or just plain Paranoia.

I'm self-diagnosed with one hella effin problem.

I'm trying to play the Game well, but how can one play well being pessimistic,

being Paranoid.

crestfallen, once again

Some search, never finding a way.
Before long, they waste away.
I found you, something told me to stay.
I gave in, to selfish ways.
And how I miss someone to hold,
when hope begins to fade.

something as common as a Cold in LA

to come and think about it, she's prolly the first

she brought out a side of me I didn't know.

If I ain't the first, I still hope It won't be the last.

I don't run fast, that's why I'm taking it slow and hopefully steady, to see how things would grow.

Maybe I've got under another spell, keeping me from seeing the real things.

Trying so hard not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away.

sometimes, sometimes just the thought of it just keeps me so alive.

nice to meet you, really ((:

she's what I call, so fine.
the sugar with a lil touch of spice.

maybe? may be.

we'd always look up to the skies for answers

all was right before me to see
to see them all take another new step in their lives
but
I'm still there
yet to finish what I've started

whose there to blame, no one.
.
.
.
oh wait, there's someone. myself.

my prettiest friend

This is what I look like today
And I'm trying not to pull out my hair
I'm trying not to show it 'cause I'm far too shy to grow it back there
That's prolly why I'm wearing a cap
There's no denying I'm deferring the facts
Avoiding confrontation lacks tact in a situation
Behind every line is a lesson yet to learn

But if you asked me
The feeling that I'm feeling is overwhelming
And oh, it goes to show
there's so much to know

I'm singing this for my prettiest friend
but while trying not to prove that I care
i was trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away
she can't see she's making me crazy now
I don't believe she knows she's amazing how
She's got me holding my breathe so I'd never guess
that I'm a none such unsuitable, suited for her

But if you ask me
The feeling that I'm feeling is complimentary
And oh, it goes to show
The moral of the story is boy <3 girl and so on
but the way that it unfolds is yet to be told

I know that I should be brave
Even pretty can be seen by the blind
I know that I cannot wait
Until the day we finally learn how to find each other Redefining open minds

And if you ask me
The feeling that I'm feeling is overjoyed
And it's golden, it goes to show then
The ending of this song should be left alone And so on
cos the way it unfolds is yet to be told



even Heaven is Hell without you

twentyo9, new year same shit.

im not your boytoy, letting u pull around and getting anything and everything off.
if you wanna flash me the red light, fucking do so. don't pretend to flash a lil of the green light to me here and then. Thats when accidents occur when u flash the wrong lights and u know it.


Im lowering myself just to get into your good books and I swear im all sincere. BUT i dont wanna waste my fucking time on someone who doesnt even give a damn shit and i dont wanna waste any of your fucking time either.

well apologies, cos it really pisses me off when you're trying to act all missy over it. deal with it im Leo.

Excuse the obscene, ignore the untrue
Depictions we see, try and get through
And many mistakes cant hurt
I'm not the last but I sure ain't the first

yours Faithfully

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade.

I'm not asking much from you.

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

you're impossible to find.

the best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
could it be that we have been this way before?
i know you don't think that i am trying
i know you're wearing thin down to the core

but hold your breath because
tonight will be the night that
i will fall for you over again
don't make me change my mind
i won't live to see another day
i swear it's true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
you're impossible to find

this is not what i intended
i always swore to you i'd never fall apart
you always thought that i was stronger
i may have failed,
but i have loved you from the start

oh, but hold your breath because
tonight will be the night that
i will fall for you over again
don't make me change my mind
or i won't live to see another day
i swear it's true
because a girl like you is impossible to find

it's impossible

so breathe in, so deep
breathe me in
i'm yours to keep
but hold on to your words
'cause talk is cheap
and remember me tonight when you're asleep

because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you, over again
don't make me change my mind
or i won't live to see another day
i swear it's true
because a girl like you is impossible to find

tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again
don't make me change my mind
or i won't live to see another day
i swear it's true
because a girl like you is impossible to find

you're impossible to find.

-you're probably taking it as another one of the many times that its happening to you. but pls know that there are serious people. not another one of your toyboys-

love hurts

Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast to truth
I don’t want to lose what I had as a boy
My heart still has a beat
But love is now a feat
As common as a cold day in LA
Sometimes when I’m alone, I wonder
Is it a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?
Love hurts…
But sometimes it’s a good hurt
And it feels like I’m alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart And try me, ‘cause without love I won’t survive
I’m fettered and abused
I stand naked and accused
Should I surface this one man submarine?
I only want the truth
So tonight we drink to youth
I’ll never lose what I had as a boy
Sometimes when I’m alone, I wonder
Is it a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?
Love hurts…
But sometimes it’s a good hurt
And it feels like I’m alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me,
‘Cause without love I won’t survive

please?

I really hope you're not treating me like another dumb ripoff

if I could, I would

i'll be that pair of shoes to walk you around the world.

im serious.

"hey, its 2008!" ; "oh it is?"

Its been 2 yrs already.
nothing much has change, that's if you know what Im referring to.

wasnt a really big hoo haa countdown this year though. just pretty much me trying so badly to get high on my poison. ah countdown, which reminds me, I(we) sorta missed it. yes missed. We're all there and we somehow looked over it.

So you remember Heroes? One of us stopped time, or rather, Rewinded time a lil so we could countdown again. gah~

And comes the infamous question frm all. "What's your New Year Resolution."
Syafiq told me to leave sorrows behind. So I'll try to leave them behind with 2007. Next would be fucking faster ORD. and lastly financial issues; lighten them.

, juvenile infatuation

Im sorry for being a jerk.
I just couldn't help it but be one. (one hell of an excuse huh pohs).

I know you hate me. If you would ever want to ask for permission to stab me; save it.
I'll hand you the /knife.

itsucks to be emo

yet again, ah yet again.

//

its gonna be like another one way traffic again.

ya ohkk periodfullstop.

//

.you got me 10 feet off the ground

many wanna give you heaven
many queued to give you the best
many tried their utter best to give you the world
many made you feel like Queen

but Im the One who thinks that
youre too good for all of it.

the one who was foolish enough to be like the rest
the one who chose to live in denial
the one Who thinks that youre too good for all of it.

it sucks to decide on one.

a new pair of sneakers

a new mobile phone

a new watch

so far Ive only asked my sis for comments on which I should get. Well its all still spending.
Oh well its my decision afterall.

should I go, or should I stay.

I just feel like ranting abit.

it just came to mind that;
why would I even want to give it a try when I know that it wouldn't possibly work out. why would I even bother to fucking try when everything is going to be futile.

Sometimes I just think too highly of myself.

never will be good enough for her.

i won't see you t'onight

I can see just fine, with you in my life,
there by my side as it starts to fade
I know this can't be right, stuck in a dream
a nightmare full of sorrow
nightmare full of pain

~

You can't be replaced
I'm left alone with you
in spirit and the words
you wrote to me

~

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me,
I cared for and most of all I loved
but I can't see myself that way
please don't forget me or cry
while I'm away

yay weekends. not

my weekends have been uber boring. real, uber boring.

end of course is near, exams strangling me.
posting out soon, Im really gonna miss you. damn.
i cant help but think about what you're always thinking about. oh damn.
i dont know why either.

whenever im in camp, i'll be yearning to go home.

whenever im at home, i'll be yearning to go back to camp.

whatsup with this shit man.

____


it is that i really do not understand what it actually feels like or that im just a plain asshole.

girlfriends or girl friends

well?
beats me (:

your Guardian Angel

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can’t replace
And now that I’m stronger I’ve figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I’ll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It’s ok. It’s ok. It’s ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I’ll be the one

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you’re my, you’re my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don’t throw that away
Cuz I’m here for you
Please don’t walk away,
Please tell me you’ll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I’ll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

a glimpse from all the way back

we tried our best to get our dressing right.


i think i just saw myself.


for love of nation.


one people one nation.


salute to the nation


the judge's choice for best photo


and when the navy guards go marching in...


this is how we do it.


our march pass

a rant

issit just fucking none of my fucking business or issit just that im being fucking way too fucking busybody

sometimes i do

1st up; thanks shu ying, for turning up for the Ndp preview (: supersweet. and Happybirthday Wantong :$

i heard some stuff. but because of me & myself, i just can't help but think too much, or the bad side ,or the untrue side ,or just the side about it which would just make me ponder more about it. Seriously i want to know the rational behind it and where i stand. Because i dont want nobody to get hurt. pls, trust me.

please don't forget me, or cry while I'm away.

the difference between
rap & hiphop

is the same as

the difference
when you say you love somebody & when you're in love with somebody

just a lil' piece of advice

awesome thing happened last sat during the ndp rehearsal. we sorta paraded from suntec to esplanade. yes on the roads. traffic held and everything. it wasnt windy but windy when we marched over. get what i mean?

________

something else; just a lil' piece of advice.

Some people just want to get to know others, no, not just trying to be a friendly person and wants to widen his or her social circle. Or whoever may claim having interest in you or what. Oh pls, some things arent as simple as what you might see; theres much u dont see and know. In short, trust the right people and dont be gullible enough to just smile & fall for the sweet nothings.





(:

tender lovingcare

tees, polo tees, boxers, mobile phone and so many other things lining up in the shopping list, oh well and of course a lil' of your tender loving care.


July is around the corner. Pay + GST Offset! Let's go shopping peeps. (:

girl you look so fine.

im back again for some blogshit.

numerous parades again. im so getting used to all of it. All Hail the ParadeMachines!

______________________


it seems like recently, i cant help but bother so much about what i actually needn't bother about.
Or rather, being concerned would be the more appropiate word to use. But would it always be the same way it ends oh so numerous times. thefuck, who knows.

misunderstanding sucks, misunderstanding what seems like heaven sucks like totally.

what's there to fucking comment about !

What's the use of looking forward to something and then it all ends up fuckd.
Cabbing down to Zouk and then cabbing back home without laying a fucking step into the place just sucks. maybe its really nothing and Im just over reacting.


quote Steve : "it's all about patience"

utter utter utter __________(seriously I do not know what word i should use)



wrong time wrong time; seriously just not fated

I R Teh Nooooob

OML now i know how to play Poker and Mahjong! but still working on it :D




-always that stupid feeling-

Mine Shine Milk Tea. Thumbs Up!

Returning back to base at fucking 4am is not a joke. Yup thats when we all came back from sailing since Thurs morning and back on Friday. Onbard the biggest ship in the RSN is no small matter. And it was one hell of and experience despite the jam packed schedule for the whole sailing day. The sailing trip marks the end of our Jr. Rating Course(JRC). We're gonna be seperated into our individual vocations. Just gonna wish yall allswell. We're still the Sons of the Sea.

I have learnt my lesson of not taking naps anymore. I was suppose to meet up with my class mates the same night we cam back from sailing @ O Bar. Meeting time was around 9-10. I decided to take a quick nap at 6pm. Alarm clock set at 8. Well 2 hrs nap is more than enough you can say. Alright wakey wakey, it's Saturday morning 0945am. 1 word; FUCKD. 9 miss calls, flooded sms inbox, flooded MSN. None noticed by me at all, not a single wee bit. The least i could do was fucking apologise. No on to blame except myself. Definitely missed out on alot of fun. Coming week, Ima make up for it. Waitup peeps (:

p.s Actually the whole entry hasnt got anything to do with the title. :D

Merry Merlion

chillout session over at ame's place yesterday night. Yes, ame actually organised something.
Liangyu, Fiq, Jon, Rick, ChyeT & myself were all there.

@ the poolside accompanied by booze and chips. We were kinda noisy until there were complains from the residents. SORAYY. No cards, so wadda, only booze games. Sorta found out about a new booze game called "I have never...".

A little about how the game goes;
It's a turn basis game that can go as long as u want it. When its your turn, you'll say something that you have never done before. So here's the fun part, the rest of the people in the game will drink up if they HAVE done before whatever you've just said.
(This is the perfect game if you want to know all the dirty secrets about your friends.)

So i got to know some secrets yea! 1 of my friend has done a blowjob before, Some of my friends havent masturbated before, there are people who haven't watched porn before...etc.

p.s This game is solely on integrity; no integrity, no fun. (:

Well of course, a game with booze will always end with liars, nonsense, noisy people and definitely puke.

Garrick and Amelia were so nice yesterday that they helped the management of the Condo to water the plants, but well, with puke. :s

Oh yes, thanks Liangyu for that tonnes of postcards, that huge amount means something i know... we'll work on it definitely (:

Wonderful night folks. Thanksamill.

tug-o-war on 30th march, lost to NDU. but won 2-0 on a best of 3 friendly tug later on. heck; what's the use. anyways, great competitors, 3 cheers and 3 cheers for NDU. hiphiphooray!

met up with a few folks for shisha not long ago during the evening. been some time yea. the tempatation was there to light the cigarette; but no. YESSA. thanks ame(:

got back home and kerri showed me some pics from so long last time. looking through it made me realise that we're not only close now; we've always been so close. ima share some snapshots with you lucky people.


. smiiiille (:


.we were playing pickup sticks


.lets get loud


.this was when blindmice was so effin fun


.were cousins, always cousins


.hello? operator. anyway; its my sis


.she looks just like herself then and now

24th march, a day to remember; well at least for me

today, the Quit Smoking Campaign officially starts for me, oh yes for you too Amelia (:

Let's keep our promises and go smoke free and healthy!

p.s. I just saw the quit smoking advertisement on tv, and i nearly puked my chicken foldover on my keyboard -_-

It has always been the same, since when, since then. Probably it might just always be the same, always be the same.

Should I call it much time wasted on something futile or just simply misunderstandings.

ok it's time to do a lil update.

Again, it's lunar new year already. Seriously, the only thing I've been looking forward to and will always look forward to as long as im able to is the collection of angbaos :D. Gonna be back at camp on oh so soon Tuesday.

Oh yes, great news, but maybe wouldn't be such a great news for some. I'll be participating in the NDP'07! In the Navy GOH(Guard-of-Honour) contingent! Woohoo one hell of a dream come true for me at least. Heard from alot of reliable sources that the training for NDP would be super shiong, but what the heck! AI ZAI!

Had a nights off recently, also our 1st one. Went to Zouk; Mambo Night! Chucks and Yongda and some of my cabin mates were there. Fuck it I couldnt get into phuture. If i could, i would have bumped into Kerri! Talking about "So near yet so far". The night was fun, more to come i promise :D And Jinwen, please come along :x

Gonna be kinda busy when i get back to camp, JRC is starting and we all gotta move to a new block, and then studying starts. 8-5 in the auditorium, or should i call it the freezer?

Bye, wanna get some sleep now man. DEAD BEAT.

People say that it really wouldn't matter if you'd have to tell a lie just to see a person's true colour. No doubt about that indeed. Nothing much need to be said, simply just having told a lie to see through someone. So yea, I could actually get to experience this sorta shit.

Something else, it seems that since the day the re-coursees joined our cohort, problems just keep flowing in. Be it from the BMT instructors, other instructors from the institute or whatsoever. Looking at their one hell of a yahyah face just pisses people off. Oh yes, would you even give the least respect to instructors who demand you to NOT to do something and yet they themselves do it? Well I would agree with you. I wouldn't want to spell everything out here so, pardon me.

Ok now all about something else. I think I've said this so many times, I haven't been meeting up with my homies for so long! And of course it would naturally bring to them that I've forgotten about them. Hell no peeps. And thanks Garrick, if you didn't remind me, I would have continued to owe you for dont know how long more. Seriously, it slipped my mind .(:

I gotta be on my way in a while soon. Duty watch tomorrow(Sunday). 2nd duty watch, STILL on a weekend. hoorays! Well at least i wouldn't need to give a fuck about CNY's duty watch :D

For the 142390571248973th time ima say this again "Happy New Year peoples."

ok so its the new year and people would always want to come up with new resolutions?
I'll just roughly make a quicklist for mine:-

.1)Pass IPPT and hopefully get a Silver.(Silver=$100 Gold=$200)
.2)Cut down MORE of my weight.
.3)Spend more time with my friends, you know who.
.4)Spend more time planning for my retail therapy.
(its hard for this to come by though)
.5)Try not to ponder over the same ol' shit stuff since the 1st day of '06.
And lastly)Try to quit smoking (:

Oh yes and talking about giving a good kick start for the year 2007, for me it would be Duty Watch AKA Guard Duty on the very fucking 1st day of '07. What a great start huh.

Alright, ima go catch some sleep already, gonna book-in in a few hours' time. So long folks. Later.

Last wednesday was our GP. Didnt want to, but, everyone got emotional and it just spreads. Tears of joy and sadness. What were you expecting? 6months BMT hellooo.

Got my posting on friday. Naval Systems Assistant(Weapon Control Specialist).
Sounds cool huh? Let's just hope that it not the name thats only cool but IT to be also cool. Fingers crossed. From what i know, most of my platoon mates are either Signallers, Recce, Drivers or Combat Medics. Only 2 of us, including myself got posted to whatever i got posted to. But who cares, at least I wont feel so lonely when i report to the camp.

On a more serious note, i got to apologise to some people. I havent been too free recently to hang out with you guys la. So sorry la my darlings. Anyway im going to clear my leave soon so yea at least its going to make up abit. Christmas is coming and a New Year is also right around the corner. Just hoping that i wont be staying in and be missing out on all the fun.

did you miss me; I've left you here alone for too long

Bought a few tees from lpzone and FleshImp recently. Strangely, it just comes to me that i need something new in my wardrobe. Maybe a belt soon? Nehehe.

Sit Test was over just a week ago, total shag, total turn off. Outfield 3 days invited by the stupid rain, tell me about it. Men Morale 10/100. Maybe a stripshow would have given us a boost :D

Another 3 odd weeks and we're done, it's gonna be POP, or rather GP(Graduation Parade).
They changed the name cos POP sounds off, where everyone passes out in the parade; you should get what i mean. Come to think about it, all who graduated from BMT always say they miss their recruit days. Gosh i cant imagine cos mine, ours, is like 6 freaking months. Definitely gonna miss everyone and everything we do together. Then a short break later after GP we'll be posted to our new unit. New place New people. My PC(Platoon Commander) was saying that our batch of recruits were the Combat Fit Obese ones. Which means, there will be high possibilities that WE get posted to combat unit. Which also means outfield, outfield and more outfield.

There's this thing that has been in my mind for some time. Combat unit shiong, Command School also shiong. Why not go to one which you get paid more for suffering. Where to?

So the 24km route march is finally over and we all rocked school upon our return at around 11pm. Completing the route march was really something super fulfilling. Its like completing a pilgrimage or so...It just feel so god damn good; shaggness and satisfaction


Recently, things start to happen. People start blabbering nasty stuff about nothing and everything. Backstabbers, finally got to see their true colours. They take things for granted and even worse, take their section mates whom they stayed with four the pass 4 months, for granted. But they say that in the army, all we can do is just Look at your thumb, aim, and suck it. Oh well, we shall take this as some experienced gained in life.


dwell on the pass less, cheerup and try, to move on. be strong (:

Finally, i got the time to update a lil in my blog.

I was on my way to Pasir Ris interchange. This is what happened. The Bus stopped and a few passengers boarded, so automatically he closed the doors and drove off. What i saw when the bus was moving off was; a boy, THE MOST 6 or 7 years old? He missed the bus and pointed his middle finger at the bus like u know....such a little third finger.

Anyway, The Main Events of BMT are like 90% over already except for SIT test and our 24km route march(which is on the coming week). There's this feeling of satisfaction after everything is done. Getting to throw a fucking live grenade is no laughing matter. Trust me guys, you will love it. Well sorry, "the women don't get it". As for BIC and Trench Digging, although i didn't participate in it cos i had diarrhoea, i could tell that it was one hell of an experience even by just looking. You'll just have to do it to know how it feels.

Seize the day - Avenged Sevenfold
I came across this song recently. As it has always been, beautiful song with beautiful lyrics. Im just taking a shot in the dark but I think its about losing someone and just thinking about what it would be like if you saw them again and how desperate the person would be to keep them forever and not lose them again, the title pretty much sums up the whole song, seize the day and live for now because you could lose the person you love....but thats just what the songs says to me. Simple but powerful song which just gives the chills.

The dreaded Field Camp is finally over. It's only 5 days, which is 2 days lesser than other companies but FUCK! its bad enough. And according to our OC, we are now MAN. Getting sandfly bites, rashes, bruises and whatsoever just to become a MAN; well I guess it's pretty worth it. What i hate most during the Field Camp is that we have to sleep on the fucking rocky ground which fucking makes my back gonna give way, yea yea so im complaining now. The day we went back to company line, all of us worshipped our company line, beloved beds and the holy shower tap. You won't know how it feels until you go through it that is for sure.


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Just met up with a few of my folks not long ago to "celebrate" my belated 21st. Went a couple rounds of bowling which i totally sucked in and had dinner at Seoul Garden. I would like to take this oppotunity to thank Mr Gwee LiangWu again for the "surprise" cake that he brought. It was totally heart melting even though i didn't show it.tsk. It was the one and only cake that I got for my birthday and yes again, THANKS ALOT!




p.s if sengkang was far, how about Italy? xD

So as expected, my 21st birthday was sort of celebrated in camp with my camp buddies. It all started the moment I returned back to camp after my Driving Test. Oh and before I continue, I shall now say out loud that I'm legal to drive! (:


And I was talking about birthday shit. The 1st one was when I opened my cupboard and realised that everything inside was gone. Obviously I stodd there stunned. My section mates actually switched my whole cupboard with another empty cupboard that's in our bunk. They switched it so well, even the 2 charts and 1 magnet that is on the cupboard was changed and well, i just fell for it. 2nd one is when I finally sat down on my bed to take off my boots and realised that my towel was strangely "dirty" with powder. To make it simple, there was another "bedsheet" of powder on my bed and poof there you have; a snowman. 3rd is Salonpas Gel on slippers which didn't have much effect and 4th is double sided tape in my PT shoes which I noticed and removed (: 5th is the wet tissue attack when I went to bathe and on my birthday itself, a birthdya bash EVERY HOUR. Somebody save me please...


But nontheless it was one hell of a birthday in camp and hell yea it was memorable. Coming week is Field Camp already. And so they say it is during Field Camp when Boy turns to Man, so I guess for me would be, Man becoming a better man? xD

it's already 0102hrs on wednesday morning, which means it's National Day. But wtf i have to book in by 1830hrs whic means.... that i'll be missing the NDP. Coming 15th this month I'll be taking my driving test please Lord O Mighty let me pass. I got a little time to practise my guitar. Yes I got a guitar and I just started learning in camp. I can't even strum properly and change chords properly so you can just imagine how horrigible I am with a guitar; well at least for now (:

that's about it folks. take care and goodbye.

I'll make this a quick one.

Got to meet up with a few of my homies for Movie(The King and the Clown). I liked the show and yea, I like it. Had supper at the usual; Al Azaar. Don't have much time to update recently and even if I have the time, it would be only the routinal life that i go through 5(6) days a week in Tekong. Just got back this morning and I have to book in again in about and hour or so. Anyway, confinement Isn't that bad at all :D

an that's about it for now I guess.
Later folks!

p.s: Please wait for me and watch Pirates of the Carribean together? thanks.

I still can't get back what I've lost. Oh goddamit.

back for awhile

First 2 weeks being confined in Tekong was much of a bore.

1stly - there's not much excercise done, only brisk walking.
2ndly - the schedule is mostly eat and sleep putting aside the numerous lectures.
3rdly - about the food, there's always chicken, chicken and CHICKEN.

Putting aside the boredom, many fun stuff happened too. Got to know alot of new friends and my platoon mates are sociable to the core, even more are my bunk mates. Although brisk walking is fucking boring, singing during the walks added alot of fun to the walk. I was platoon IC for the 1st week and because of that and alot of singing, i lost my voice. Ok enough about army.

Just caught up with a few of my folks for dinner and watched Silent Hill. Tomorrow is stay home for me and Im going to do what I should do.

please don't forget me, or cry while I'm away.

TAKE CARE FOLKS

It should be time I update a lil.


Just woke up after a great night's sleep.


Met Long, Shinin and Ruoting in town. My main purpose meeting Long was to get sukfen's present but change of plans. Too much time taken for the 3 of them settling their applications for overseas university studies. Well I was browsing one of the booklets of one of the Universities there. The minimum fees for the courses there was a hefty AUD18,000 to a fucking AUD35,000. All that are just school fees, not to say adding the living expenses there. But I can actually forget about going into a university overseas.


Later in the day, went to meet up with a few of my homies for an advanced birthday celebration for Garrick. Dinner was good, company was even better. So according to "routine", we headed down to Pool Factor for some games of Pool and had supper at Al Azhar which pretty much ended the day.


Now, somehow, I feel very enthusiastic about enlisting into NS and also equally not enthusiastic about going in. Im so gonna miss my homies. Oh Well.






another perfect day

It was Syafiq's birthday yesterday. Met up with a few of my folks yesterday at Marina Square for lunch at Carls Jr. One hell of a meal. Has been some time since I last ate it. After the meal, all I could do is stone there.


Anyway we caught MI:III after lunch. The movie was worth the money spent, well that's my opinion. But I didn't get to watch the first and second part though. Syafiq and Garrick left after the movie and the rest of us couldn't decide on where to go and so went our own ways. Some headed home, some met relatives, well Sug Tee Jon and I went to grab a bite at the hawker beside DXO. I felt kind of guilty cos we couldnt really think of where to go and Amelia looked as if she's pekcek. :/ so yea sorry la Ame, at least there was Famour Amos right HA!


After that i met up with my cousin and went for a little LAN gaming. Went down to the airport to send one of his friend off. Expected, there was those typical drama tear drop stuff. Supper at Popeye at Changi Airport Terminal 1. In case you don't know what Popeye is, it's something like KFC la. Except they have much better mashed potatoes.


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I came back not ago from Mothers' Day dinner. My sis and I decided to give my mum a treat so we had dinner at Jurong East where they got very good Curry Fish Head and others. 2 of my Aunts joined us too. And Cherie. And my bro.


I going to be working only 3 days in the upcoming week! Yay and No Yay. Yay for more fun time, No Yay for less money. Oh and I can finally drive again on Thurs and Fri! WOOHOO

It's off day for me today. Finally, after a few days of full shift, I can take a break. Working full shift consecutively for 3 days really drained the shit out of me. I started working in Paddy Fields Restaurant last Sunday. Also my first time working in a restaurant or whatsoever. I was told to do Pantry, well lucky for ME that I didn't have to do Service.


Business at Paddy Fields is quite good I say. Everytime whenever the shift starts, the only time I can catch my breath is just right at the start of the shift when no customer is around. Later, they start to flock in and I will start to go mad. Maybe it's because I don't have experience in these kind of job im doing that's why I can't really do it calmly bla bla. For this period of time there would be only 1 person doing pantry because of lack of staff.


I wandered around the restaurant during one of my in between shift breaks. Doing so I came across quite a number of plaques on the walls. Best Food Service Award 2005. Something like it. Can't remember the reamaining few though.


I'm getting used to working there. And that's good. Anyways, their Staff Meal is marvelicious! You want some thai foood? I don't speak thai.


At least Im working now and would probably stop complaining that I'm shit bored at home with nothing to do. Full shift tomorrow. woot. Coming Sat is Syafiq's birthday YAY.

060506 - a day to remember.

Been ages since I've got a chance to hang out with my homies and finally got to do so today. "Celebrated" ame's birthday at Settlers Clark Quay. It was my virgin visit there and yes it was GOOD or rather, AWESOME. Well i say not for the food cos we didn't really had much food there but just some quick bites. We played Pictionary, Truth or Dare Jenga and TABOO. We got some videos featuring a couple of us doing the dares. But sadly im too lazy to upload it. Maybe you can get to see them on Liangyu's blog or else TOO BAAAAD (: In short, Settlers is a place worth going with your homies and just go mad playing the games there.


Dinner was at some ulu restaurant in Chinatown Point called Nine's Cafe. Just simple frozen food prepared by, just deep frying them DOH and making them look presentable. Met up with yongda at wheelock after that and just chilled at starbucks below Devils bar.


To sum it up, I really had one hell of a day with all you peeps, dontcha?
Oh well i got work later WOOHOO work work. Hello bed Bye com. LATER!




Revolution(Verb): When one person and another fights.
Eg1. Just now there were two people revolutioning outside MOS.
Eg2. Teebye you where bueh song, not happy come revolution with me la taoteebye.

I was out cycling as usual. strangely and sadly, I sprained my back. Yup, just like that. I don't know how but I just sprained it when I was cycling, simply cycling. No I wasn't try to do any stunts or what, well as if I could. Now I cant bend my back too much; partially disabled. What's worse is that I have driving tomorrow. Hopefully it will not get affected.

My fellow cousins are going to throw a surprise party for cousin Clara. Dress code is white, holyshit. I bet its going to be lotsa fun.

Well ok, till then, bye. Oh yes, Liangyu and Shu ying, take care and get well soon (:

Was at town yesterday with Liangyu and Syafiq. It was Good Friday, sadly there wasnt any Easter Bunny around :$. Ok so Liangyu and I reached town 1st and we had lunch while waiting for Syafiq. We waited at Spinelli for Syafiq.

When the both of us walked towards Spinelli, there was some commotion. This mum was scolding his son whom i suppose just punched his younger brother on the chest. The younger brother was crying and touching his chest or something. They're only like the most in Primary School or even younger. Nevermind, you might just say it's ok that kids play around and hit each other. Ok leave it at that. Not long later, they left.

Now there's this mum, young mum i suppose. From the looks can tell that she's those ai mai ai mai those lady la. I THINK. maybe im wrong. Then he's son, was by his side wandering around while she was yakking over on the phone. I overheard one of the sentences she said which goes something like:

"Eh lai leh lai leh, wa very boring leh."

Ok back to her son. Dressed nicely like a typical 5 year old with his hair all gelled up like some punk. Nothing special at 1st. It was when 2 caucasions came and sat a table behind them. The boy, out of mischief( I HOPE) simply went over with a cup of water and splashed it on one the of man's Motorolla V3. The caucasion didnt really mind and he just simply smiled at the boy and wiped his phone. But the other caucasion told off the boy in a nice manner that its not right to do that bla bla bla. And guess what the boy did, he simply gave a stupid smile and splashed the remaining water on the other guy's jeans. WTF? It was until now the man alerted the boy's mum who was still happily yakking on the phone. All the mum did was paused from her yakking and just hollered her son's name out. THATS IT. Yes thats it, no apology no nothing.

By then Syafiq arrived and we were still at spinelli awhile. The boy's still there. Now the boy tried to take Fiq's wallet -_-. And lucky we all noticed. The mum, STILL ON THE PHONE didnt even give a shit about it....

Enough of all this shit now.

We window shopped in heerens awhile and soon went over to wheelocks. Liangyu bought 2 pairs or leather shoes for 300+ at Substance. Wasnt such a great expense for 2 pairs la i guess. Syafiq and I realised 1 thing when we were waiting for Liangyu. Liangyu shops like GIRLLLL :D
no offense eh Liangyu :p. Finally was able to get out of wheelock after Liangyu bought his shoes. So we headed over to FarEast cos i wanted to buy a tee. Actually loking for a shop that sells only those rock metals stuff bla bla but of no avail. Liangyu claims that the shop I'm looking for is Eviel. Got into one of the Eviel shop and got myself another Avenged Sevenfold tee :D. Oh and i got a new name from the sales assitant; BrotherJohn! Probably the next thing i want to get is a belt buckle with the A7X logo on it. Hmm we'll see.

Cabbed down to Bukit Timah and had some rounds of pool. Bumped into Felix, Lionel and SiangJu. And later Faris and his friend. Dinner + Supper = ?. Maybe Dupper. Had Dupper and Al Azhar and headed back home soon after.

sometimes it's hard to figure out what I should say


It suddenly came to me that I should blog. so i'll just try.

some of you might not know that im going for army already. supposedly december, but my parents thought that I should just go in as soon as possible. so i wrote in a request for an earlier enlistment. I guess it has been confirmed that I'll be scheduled for the June/July in-take. I'll be going in around June i guess cos im PES BP la. which means PES B Pending, cos im in the obese company and therefore need to go in earlier, like a month earlier, so it's June instead of supposedly July. YAY obese company. Strangely but yes im so looking forward for National Service.

Many would be asking, "i thought you still have attachment and stuff to complete?" or "i thought you have 1 more year to go?".

well stop probing over it and just take the fact that Im going army. yes seriously. It's not some POSTPOST April's Fool joke or some shit.

There's much that happened between me and my family. I am such a disappointment, I really am. My parents also hope that the 2 years in army will "wake me up". I hope so too.

Now, or rather, since the holidays started, I dont have anything to do. I wanted to get a job BUT im going NS soon and i couldnt possibly just work 2 months only. So everyday would be like wake up, brush up and sit on my throne infront of my com. Hopefully i get a date and i can get to just go out.

Since im so free, I started joggin at bukit batok nature park sometimes. so i know my stamina is like shit but whatever, I'm trying.






it seems that you found something new in your life. Finally you could move on and leave the unhappy past behind. Oh but please dont leave everything behind. there shouldn't be anything to worry about i guess? at least you know it's 2 way traffic, not fucking 1.What's been done has been done. I feel happy for you.

Just call my name, and I'll be there.

BLOG. blog simi sai.

oh so it's already monday.



met Garrick, Liangyu, Jonathan and Sugnesh for pool at pool factor on Saturday. They just came from bbss after donating blood. So the same topic came to me, "pohseng why never go donate blood?" and i gave the same lame reply "later pump out all the fats instead of blood how?" crap. Back to pool, we all realised that Sug has a great time whenever he hits many balls with one shot; so it would be pretty lame if he just made a single clear shot. Because of that we all laughed and whatnots. Funtime with the guys at pool.

Headed down to PhunkBar down at Muhammed Sultan Road. Jason and his band, which i guess includes Yk, Saufi, Candice and Wan, were having their first performance at a gig held by PhunkBar itself. Cant't really remember what the event was called but what i remembered was that i saw a banner which goes "When the moose goes loose" or something close to that. It was their virgin live performance and they did it great. Well done guys, and girl. I met some long time no see friends like Lionel oh Liiiiiionel and Nafiur! Really been a long time since I've seen him, count by years? One person didn't come though. Sebastian! He fucking said he would be coming and yada yada and endedup pangseh-ing the whole shit because of what!? MICH. you jubor. Enough about this.

So everyone decided to go home already. Garrick, Jon and Fiq cabbed home. Liangyu and I waited for 54 to FarEast Plaza. So we waited pretty long for the bus, long enough to irritate us. Finally the bus came and so yay we boarded. And so we boarded the 54 that goes the wrong direction. Oh so mabad Liangyu, wasted your time. I was also already fucking late cos i was suppose to meet my cousin at FarEast. He waited for a couple of hours. Also super sorry man Long. Anyway he bought an Ipod Video + all the other accesories for only 458 i guess. Lucky man got it from Cine's I21 where he had a friend working there and so got a 10% off. Went Marina bowling after that with Long and his friends. Had supper at some Muslim stall at river valley road. Maggi Goreng! delicious. ok whatever. So i stayed over at his house and came home the following day.

Ima say this again but, I really want to work somewhere. Yea I know, it doesnt sound convincing at all but I jus want to say this (:





when history repeats itself; the bad history.

pretty late entry i can say. finally caught up with my peeps for a movie and dinner. sadly liangyu couldnt join us.

V for vendetta was quite a nice movie, i especially liked the last part where he fought. cool scene. I say 3.5/5 stars? Had dinner at marche. Couldnt decide where to go after that and we ended up at Pool Factor. I didnt go home that day, went over to my cousin's place.

Actually im not in the mood to blog. Seriously some shit just sticks in the mind like glue and its fucking irritating. The more you think about it, the more irratated u get. Like i told liangyu, there are some things i really shouldnt talk about and should just fucking write them down on paper and so that when i die, someone could read it.

Alright im done for now, ciao.

Was in town yesterday having sakae sushi with neu after he got his laptop. Pretty much last minute decision to eat to sakae yea. Somehow, jap food is getting boring. Sebas came over to meet us, he came about 5+ or 6? ya la eat sakae, eat shit la sebas. jajaja.

neu left after sakae la. ok fine leave, like i'll ask u stay. :x jaja. Stayed at cineleisure. There's some marc ecko hip hop dance battle competition going on. Coolio stuff. There were contestants from different countries; Singapore, Malaysia, Indonesia, Thailand, Swenden, Switzeland, Australia, New York, Japan, Korea etc.

Alot of them, were those whom you see and you'll get the impression that there're wannabe posers. Well i also thought that way just by looking at some of them la. But when they got onto the stage and start the dance battle. Music plays and they get connected to the music and poof, another person. Cheers. Everyone taking part in it, were serious and all during the dance battles, but when the music stops, friends again. There were awesome dancers and of course some who still needed more training and stuff, but anyways they tried. 2 Thumbs up. Applauseee. There's this b-boy that i remembered the most. He was literally a b-BOY. A rought guess, he would be about the most sec 1 or 2? His moves really stunned the crowd. Thinking about hip hop dance battles, why wasn't Yichen there!? damn! or maybe he was.

-Shit Happens-

Taoist - Shit happens.
Buddhist - Shit happening is an illusion.
Hindu - This shit has happened before.
Muslim - It is the will of Allah that Shit happens.
Confucian - Confucius say, "Shit happens."
Zen - What is the sound of shit happening?
Hare Krishna - Shit happens shit happens shit shit happens happens.
Pagan - Shit is part of the Goddess.
Scientology - Feces occurs.
Stoic - So shit happens; I can take it.
Calvinist - Shit happens because you don't work hard enough.
Christian Scientist - If shit happens, pray and it will go away.
Catholic - If shit happens, you deserve it.
Jew - Why does this shit always happen to us?
Protestant - Let shit happen to someone else.
Atheist - Shit happens for no reason.
Agnostic - Maybe shit happens, maybe it doesn't.
Rastafarian - Let's smoke this shit (and see what happens).
Jehovah's Witnesses - Let us in and we'll tell you why shit happens.
Quaker - Shitting in silence is happening.
Cartesian - It shits, therefore it is happening.
Marxist - We make shit, and it looks just like us.
Baptists - Once you're saved, shit doesn't happen unless you backslide.

just came back from dinner with a bunch of friends from school. was actually there to sort of like a "last" gathering for jonny before he heads into tekong. actually going to head down to dxo BUT no dough ah damnit. ok im not blaming anyone accept myself. yeayea one by one everyone's going in and im jollywell still enjoying myself in ngeeAnn hurhur.

been listening to great songs recently, mainly from Bloc Party, We Are Scientists, The Notwist. Maybe YOU might want to check them out (: So far, since the holidays started, its pretty boring you know. i either wake up and then sti infront of this lcd or i just go driving and then head back home again. oh yea talking about driving, Auto-car is one hell of a fucking easy car to drive la. My Auto-car instructor didnt seem to give me a "chop" in my lesson slot today. He was commenting on how good my performance was today and wtf he didnt stamp the slot. Well, that means i have to go for another auto-car lesson; which is the 3rd one instead of supposedly 2 lessons. Looking in my own driving progress, i guess i would be able to get my liscense before my 21st? yayness.

Am so looking forward to my coming cousins' gathering! yahooo. i miss 'em sooooo much, though it's been like after chinese new year till now.

oh yea, my NS Medical checkup got brought forward to the 13th of March instead of 19th April due to some crapshit maintaineance they had to do. Do they have female nurses to do the medical checkup? :D






i miss my homies too :/

bring back oh bring back, the good'ol days
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exams are over and yup holidays are here. please, i want to have some fun while i still can.

well afew recent random shots


chivas12 lemonlime straight, anyone?


goodshit with right company = bestshit


some fried rice sebas had at banquet




-short and sweet-

tomorrow's my 1st paper. it'll be 2 in the afternoon. lucky for me i can get to sleep more, well actually it's that i need not wake up so early not that i can have more sleep; if you know what i mean.


tues will be a day's break from exams and wed thursday will be my last 2 papers but dang, they're in the morning. come soon please thursday then i can officially start my holiday mood and enjoy; that is, for the time being.


im supposed to be studying now but as you can see im here infront of my laptop.


i was talking to my dad about the com issue yesterday. and fuck guess what he said. "you can forget about it". i started quarelling with him about this shit. well he was the one who said that if i could go simlim and quote a cpu around 1k and he'll get it. and now, he says he'd rather not cos i got the specs more for gaming. like wtf, you were the one who gave the 1k budget. so fuck it, i will never be happy whenever he says he wants to get a com, until he seriously gets it and i see it in the damn house.


ok wtf. maybe i can just start my holiday mood now.




i wanna wow

I dont know why, but im getting too lazy to blog. Maybe I'll just struggle and make this brief. Study week is here and it's time to study; supposedly (: I'm going down to simlim tomorrow to check out the prices to customise a com. Hopefully yes hopefully it gets less than 1k my dad will be getting it. And with that there'll be something new coming up(:
-the End-

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When I am down and, Oh my soul so weary,

when troubles come and my heart burdened be.

Then I am still and wait here in the silence,

until you come and sit a while with me.
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.missing every memory.

will you wait for me

dear time,

Would you just fucking stop, for the time being, and let me catch up on whatever Im lagging behind. You just keep going and going. I'm one of those mofos who can't keep up with you. All you do is leave me behind when I'm trying to run somewhere near to your shadow. Seriously I know you won't wait, so i guess I'll just have to blame myself for not being able to keep up with you.

signing out,
pohs.

got grounded this week. so there's like nothing much i can blog about. except for thursday when i went to collect my phone. busy week coming up in school. many deadlines and moremoremore.


Chinese New Year's around the corner and i can't wait for that day! oh yes. Kindly pass me your angpaos when u get them for safe keeping. thanks a milliongabillion. (:


AND ALSO. cousin Kerri loves A7X too! yahooowahhoooooooo. \m/





i miss my homies

you might just get too lazy to read on.



much happened this week.

reminisce...

monday;
there wasnt school on monday. went out with some of my homies for dinner. simple as that. actually intended to dine at al azhar but it was Hari Raya Eve. obviously we had to dine somewhere else; macdonalds o.0


tuesday;
actually i forgot what i did -_-


wednesday;
my handphone died on me. went down to jurong point thinking that the nokia care outlet is still there. well it wasnt there anymore. its just a nokia OUTLET. so it was pretty much a wasted trip i guess. after that, i had to go back school for some shit, yes i mean shit. please i dont want to mention it, i'll just keep it to myself. made a last minute decision to go to the SOE(School of Engineering) Superstar Finals. why? support razif la. there was, surprisingly, a huge crowd, well at least much more than i would have expected. was there with JonathanLIN, Angeline and Syafiq. we were given light sticks at the entrance. we're suppose to use it to wave or whatever. but no i didnt (: instead i used it to throw. ok fuck you. not only me. everyone was throwing it. i only started to throw when razif sang. before that, people threw cos some of the contestants really cant sing, and well, to show how they "felt" about the performance, they just threw it -_-. i threw it yes, BUT it was like i said, during razif's performance. well not that he sang like shit. it was opposite. not really superb but it was better than average. this is when you see like ALOT of light sticks flying to the stage. razif didnt win sadly. some guy from MDE got the champ. pretty unhappy about the results la, it was obvious that there were better singers then. well, its Votes 60% Judges decision 40%. anyway, 2 thumbs up for razif who put up the one and only accoustic performace. refreshing.


thursday;
wanted to go to the causeway point nokia care. change of plans. sebas wanted to head down to town for something, i forgot what. yea so i just went to the nokia care outlet at Wheelock. went to Zara to just look around and hope to spot some eye candies. there's FIFTY% off storewide. actually its up to fifty% off. "must look at the fine print!". the 2nd floor was already like 1/2 empty or isit 1/2 full? hurhur.


friday;
school. someone tell me about it. please.


saturday;
went over to Jerry's house 1st and Jerry drove us to wheelock where i was SUPPOSE to get my handphone. after queueing for so long its finally my turn to collect. yay happy. sat down at the counter.


worker: "sorry sir but your handphone is still in HQ for further servicing."

me, forcing out a smile: "errrrrr. ok. then when can i get it?"

worker: "the most in a weeks' time."

me: "oh so how you contact me?"

worker: "could you leave a CONTACTABLE number please? thank you."


and it was then i realised the contact number i left on thursday when i sent it for service was my handphone number. DOH. stupidity to the max. well another wasted trip; at least for that period of time. headed to chongching hotpot at tanglin shopping centre around 6. it's my dear cousin, Kenny's, 21st birthday. all us cousin cliques and of course his darling were there. oh and also Uncle Aunty. food's good, as usual. spicy, chilli hothot. warm celebration, or was it hot? went to cine's 9th, argh i forgot what place its called. we got a room with 5coms and a tv. well the guys obviously headed for the coms and the ladies watched movie. cool place.


sunday(today);
it's chuck2 chyetee's birthday. happy 17th sweetie (:
met up the chucks and fiq and had sushi for dinner. caught Elizabethtown around 7. very nice movie eh. supersweet. in the movie, i really think christen durnst is like amelia. "imaginary boyfriend called BEN." rolf. went to Orange Julius after that, the ladies suddenly had a craving for icecream. so chilled out there a lil. headed home not long after. NOW, the highlight of the day. birthday girl kena BIRDSHIIIIIIIIIIIT on the head. i need not say more, let your imaginations run wild (:


now on a "sadder" tone

i got grounded for the next week and my handphone confiscated; EVEN BEFORE I CAN COLLECT MY HANDPHONE. got chided by my dad when i got home. im really getting sick of this. but if you are going to come rubbing salt to the wound, please i beg you, just fuck off. come to think about it. some of my dad's words set me thinking. am i hopeless? am i really oblivious of the serious shit that happen to me? am i stupid? am i hopeless? oh and, AGE DOENST FUCKING MATTER.




i used to






















there's more photos, i'll upload them soon. (:

hi blog,

its been sometime since i last touch u :x

anyway, its common test week BUT its overrrrr :D . well im not going to rejoice over it la cos u know... heh

weekdays were basically me "studying" and doing same ol shit. anyway i'll just go to the "main events" of the week la. there's only one this week i guess. went to seoul garden at jurong point on friday. it was Angie's 21st birthday. quite a number of people were there. felix, siangju, yangyang, angeline, jonathan, jonathan's cousin, angie's buddy and her boyfriend and of course Angie herself.

millions of years since ive ate seoul garden. right. you know when you havent ate some buffet for quite some time, you will be craving for it like wooooaahhh. and then when you actually go to eat it and u get super bloated and full to the brim, yes i mean hell to the brim, you will be like hoping you wont touch that for like another miiiilliiooon years. yea you should be feeling me :p
Actually i think it was the 1st time i ate THAT much in seoul garden. past times when im eating seoul garden i get full pretty fast and the whole buffet would just last about an hour. whereas for that day, it lasted for 3 fucking hours. OH and i should mention; we were the last to leave. :D

i've found a new game to play. its call fly for fun(flyff) haha. then maple leh? :x liangyu should know what im trying to say ahhahaha. well as for flyff, its fun la but theres only one FUCKING thing that really pisses me off. the lag. its pretty unstable. so at times it gets major lag and u just can login. when you are like so gian to play it and you cant login. you'll just swear and all. flllyyy x)

with love,
pohs.






its different now, i think

Standing by the window
Eyes upon the Moon
Hoping that the memory, will leave her spirit soon
She shuts the doors and lights
And lays her body on the bed
Where Images and Words are running deep
She has too much pride to pull the sheets above her head
So quietly she lays and waits for sleep


She stares at the ceiling
And tries not to think
And pictures the chain
She's been trying to link again
But the feeling is gone


And water can't cover her memory
And ashes can't answer her pain
God give me the power to take breath from a breeze
Like a life from a cold metal frame


In with the ashes
Or up with the smoke from the fire
With wings up in heaven
Or here, laying in bed
Palm of her hand to my head
Now and forever curled in my heart
And the heart of the world

oh its 2006


so?


just same shit but different year! well at least for me


ok so fuck it and fuck you all (:

one last post for the year 2005


argh i can't be bothered


-the end-

feliz navidad too everyone ;)

ok its christmas now and im home blogging.

feeling a little better now. serious flu and itchy throat just pisses one off. my mum and bro are now in genting. i reckon its some relative's wedding dinner. i wasnt "allowed" to go cos i was expected to be studying for my upcoming common tests. well what do you think. :) i'll just do a recap of this week.

went out to study on wednesday. seriously study. well at least ive learnt somethin :p study was done pretty soon and i headed down to town to meet up with jonathan and syafiq. unknowingly, jackson and rosa were there too. so they went to shop. fiq got a tshirt and jon got christmas gift for his girl. dont complain no money please. actually wanted to watch king kong, but didnt and we all ended up heading back home.

i went for my 2nd appointment on thursday morning at alexander's. well my appointment was 9am and i reached there around 930. i was thinking i would have missed my appointment or whatever, but when i got there, all the room numbers were just flashing 0000. is there a need for me to say more? during the afternoon, i went for my driving lesson. my instructor said i changed.

"you used to be scared scared one what, why now drive so hiong one huh"
rofls

had driving too on thursday and friday. went over to amelia's place for potluck. there was garrick, liangyu, jonathan, sugnesh, syafiq, karmen and myself. there was alot of food and i can say i really seriously totally was VERY full. Dish of the day? amelia's potato salad. :x ate and talked alot. talking about ghostly stuff is scary but yet exciting! and we know, karmen's reaction time to things is hmmmm like 1.576437985435secs after it actually happens? :x oh yes and sugnesh was sooooooo drunk lmao. to sum it up, dinner with so many friends on the table is simply awesome.

well for sat, i just stayed at home and rot the whole day. was feeling unwell. like i said, cough, itching throat, flu. bloodshot eyes and stuff. well at least im much better now. cheers!

and now on christmas itself, im blogging now and closing this entry soon. i guess im going to meet up with some of my old time sec school buddies for movie! woooo

alright till then, happy holidays and once again, merry christmas to ya'll (:

oh i was really suppose to do this cos it was spreeaaded to me by shu ying. ok fine, im pretty bored now anyways. well its some weird facts about me right? hmmm.


1. i perspire so easily. like super abnormally easy. im born with excessive amount of sweat glands i guess. well i DONT like it but i still have to deal with it. anyone who thinks that u cant fucking perspire a drop even after vigorous stuff and u think its unhealthy, please spare a thought for me, so you think im healthy cos i perspire? i perspire TOO MUCH, well it becomes like i said, abnormal or special . And oh yes, i'll be more than glad to donate some of my sweat glands to anyone who needs it. trust me.



2. well im not sure about this but my friends say i eat very fast too. its ya'll eat slow la! eat and talk same time. i eat and eat only, never talk cock also :D come to think about it, i think i eat pretty fast huh. hmmm.



3. i dont really like super happening places. like those big events like zoukout bla bla. i know its fucking exciting. everyone gets to enjoy themselves there or whatsoever. i'll just miss it. i'd rather like maybe go to chillout pubs and just u know.. chillout and enjoy the music doh -_-



4. i love my friends more than my own life. oh wait, does this even sound right?



5. i love the thought of spending on anything and everything that i could possibly do. THOUGHT because i dont even have the fucking dough to start doing it. aahahahaha.



6. last but not least. i love to "daydream" about anything and everything. well not EVERYTHING la -ahem-

seems like i have to spread this to another 5 people.
eeeni minneey meeeneee mooreee

liangyu syafiq amelia garrick rosa

gosh i have and appointment at 9am later at alexander's and im still awake. oh yessa driving tomorrow. weeeee

it's the las week of school. i dont know whether is it only me or everyone will have the urge not to even go for class since its the last week. yea you know what im saying.. The end of school meant 2 things to me. 1.its the holidays yayy 2. its the study week study time


well i know myself too well. which one will be on top of my head. =) but whatever. i have to lie to myself. this week didnt end well, at least to me. i got into shit again and NO im not blaming anyone. i know its my fault and whatsoever. anyways i really think that i am someone who doesnt fear death until it grabs me by the neck. well not really DEATHH but u know, deep shit stuff. yep.


anyways i went for quite a number of driving lessons this week. i can say driving is getting more and more fun. yea cos i more or less got the hang of some stuff. but still a long way :D. well i have to get my license before 2006 april. cos thats when my um application expires.


actually i wanst suppose to go anywhere. sort of grounded? wtf 20 and grounded. but i managed to get out the last minute and joined my peeps for dinner. well simply ate and talked and laughed. long time since i saw karmen and joseph too. both looking good and FAAAHIIIINEEE. lol whatever.


coming friday is potluck over at ame's place. hmm i still havent thought of what to bring! well i'll just have to make up my mind sooner or later.





Something about this, so very wrong
I have to laugh out loud,
I wish I didn't like this
Is it a dream or a memory?

in teh mood to blog



another week, just like that. i pretty much forgot what i did during the starting few days of the week. ah goddamnit. anyways, i guess i'll just blog whatever i can recall heh.


yongda pop liao. getting some breather from army i guess. had dinner with him on thursday with liangyu amelia and chyetee too. been a loong time since ive met yongda. typical army guy now; or so it seems. went over to wala wala at holland v for some drinks and chatted about some stuff. the rest were like talking about ex-girlfriends and boyfriends and bla blah.! all i could do is just listen, and im already contented with that :D


i dont know whether its me or what, that recently i tend to get too lazy to do stuff and get so bored that i dont even want to do anything. best is that i could just sit there and stone and just think about this and that and this and that.


christmas is around the corner. damn im not sure whether i should get some gifts or what. there was an idea of having potluck at amelia's house. hmmm but i wonder if its going to be true. oh yes. i know one person whose going to get me a christmas gift muahaha. its non other than chuck1 a'me'lia. she said she's going to buy me a car :D lalala. so work hard in your whatever job that your doing now ok! im so going to pass my driving because of youuuuu ahahahaha. oh someone tell me im cheap x)


i guess iu'll just fuck off now and just find something to do cos at this moment im getting bored of blogging, so yea. laters all!

Living goes by fast, catch your breath
and it will pass you by.
And it won't last, to sulk with the memories you hold.

been a busy week i can say. school was really fucked up. projects, quizes, assignments; damn all piling and deadlines drawing just smack infront of my face. got some cleared but still loads left hanging. darn. there was a quiz which i didnt even know shit to do, oh my lorrrrdd.


don't you just hate it when everyone else knows how to do something and you're the only one who doesn't know!


as usual i ended early on monday and i walked from school to westmall with garrick! the thought of it seems like pretty far but when you just walk, its not THAT far actually u know. heh. talked much as we walked. garrick and i were both weirdos. garrick being the one who wouldnt even perspire abit after the walk. and me who perpired like as if i just climbed bukit timah hill. gah.


the rest of the week was just school work and nothing else. and oh yes, sort of went job hunting with jaime but ended a wasted trip, cos jaime forgot where the place was. but nevermind, at least we found out some other stuff lol.


well as for today. went down to sentosa to join amelia, chyetee, garrick, jonathan and liangyu after my theory lesson. weather was near perfect. cos there was sun AND wind :D been some time since ive seen chucks u know haha. the rest tanned and i just sat there looking at THE view heh.


garrick and jonathan went off 1st. liangyu went to meet someone else *tsk* pangseh; nah jk. i ended up with ame and chyetee. oml when the 2 of the are together, they're kinda irritating cos they keep pestering me about stupid stuff. grrrrr. on our way back, the 2 of 'em talked and laughed and talked and laughed and talked and laufullstop.





stop assuming, if something sounds the way u want it, it doesn't have to be it.

went for a practice at bbdc yesterday. met up with jonathan, garrick, liangyu and shu ying. went down to queensway. jon and garrick bought some surf pants? walked around the whole place, well not really the whole place la.


went for dinner at adam's road hawker centre. i guess it was shu ying's 1st time eating nasi lemak. the nasi lemak was not bad but i think it was a lil overpriced? had ice kachang too. ended up garrick wanted to get a packet of atap ji. but we didnt get it. we endedup at pool factor again. had some rounds and fiq came to join us. got punched on the face AGAIN. i learnt a new word too. its called FORNIFICATE. well it simply means FUCK.


you promised me. but why even fucking do so when you say
CIRCUMSTANCES CHANGE
and you'll end up breaking it

hmm an early entry for today; went for driving lessons today, damn i have to say that my performance in driving today was way off! was i too nervous, what was i thinking! :/ the instructor i had today was a new one, havent seen him before. i couldnt tell how he was like feeling u know. cos he speaks like very pekcek like that; well cos i was driving like shit. but when i asked him questions, he answered like a normal nice guy. hmm lol. well im going to do better in my next driving lesson! which is dont know when.


my mum came to pick me up and we went for lunch with my bro. went to some hawker centre near my place, my 1st time there though. didnt know they had such good "zha jiang mian" ah i can't be bothered to explain what it is. anyways its pretty good.


felix called and said that angeline had tickets for movie. its free! so why not :D. but felix didnt join us, too tired. so watched Just Like Heaven with Jonathan, Angeline, Angie. hmm its a very nice movie, well to me la. it depends on whether you would want to trust my taste heh. To guys out there, if u think you're some nan zhi han and wont liu lei or whatever shit. u can take that back. cos i bet if u watch it, your eyes will get wet. ah wtf heh.


oh my i have to go to school tomorrow! i dont have to on thursday u know! my lecturer wants to see me :/ oh i wish nothing bad is awaiting me. fingerscrosssed.


yongda made his choice! take care bro. we'll catchup soon :)






I wish I could be the one
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me.

-a7x-
\m/

had dinner with my peeps.


3 course but super filling.


zi cha leh.


let me see, there were liangyu, sugnesh, jonathan, yichen, garrick, shu ying, and myself.


went to THE playground after dinner. one of the swings spoil liao :(


liangyu invented the double swing then.


sugnesh left.


went to another playground -_- ... kids in the heart =)


everyone spinned :D


got racial dispute seh. child's play lol.


instead of stopping it, we were like making it worse :x


got super hot and sweaty.


went to westmall to cooldown and get some drinks.


shu ying left.


the rest of us went to the "twin tower" in bukit batok. it's the 2 30 storey blocks la :p


had a great time chilling out there.


had alot of funny talks.


and ghost talks, nabeiiiii.


got our asses out of the building and went home weeee.